Pain

to me pain is the only way
everything goes away when i cut
make it stop. the voices are killing me or is it my conscience?
my mind wont shut down, it keeps telling me and showing me things that i dont want to hear or see.
when i cut i can finally make my mind stop.
i can only realize one thing. Pain.
so you see why i must?
too keep myself sane.
to stop the trecherous path my mind takes me on.
to stop the flashing pictures of the bad days.
to help me realize im alive and not stuck in a neverending nightmare. Pain.
the pain doesn't kick in until after, but by then the voices are back and darkness is on the prowl looking for someone like me.
im lost again and sinking into the darkness
until i cut agian to stop it all and after,
i realize that its only about one thing
Pain.