Calming

I know you read from afar, A distanced sneak peak
Maybe to see if my words of love still have your name on them.
As you know by now they most surely do.
It's all I can write about at the moment.
you see, You know its me
You can know by reading my poetry that you are missed.
Unfortunatly I'm left to guess if what I read from afar
My own little sneak peak
Maybe my thinking has got screwed up
they could be just drifting words from anothers thinking and not
yours. You see I don't truly know, I kid myself that it is
But i'm only guessing, The texts speak of a longing
or even desire to speak out and say whats in your heart and
mind, too afraid incase things go bad, I can only reply with
calming poetry. I do have the same fears as anyone would.
We did this all back to front, It's rather fucked to put it
mildly, We cant pretend that a hello wouldn't have hidden
meanings, though if we both felt the same then what would be the
problem, Just a tadge embarrassing and one we should laugh about
if that hello moment arose.
It might surprise you to know that at the moment I don't mind.
Obviously I know your here, I see your name flash up, I'm not
going down that road again so dont even worry about that.
Maybe the words you used in your response were ment after all.
You see I would have no way of knowing.
You can decide nope not for me and I'd never know, You
could walk away, I'd be none the wiser, you'd be safe in the
knowledge that I wouldn't follow so all would be well. Though
I hope It's you with all my heart, I hope you can find the
courage to speak in whatever form you feel safe with in time.