Smoke Spider Web

you admitted you wanted me
now I'm just confused see?
you play so many games
go by so many different names
you laugh at my innocence, yet get turned on by it
to me you're like a dealer to recovering addict, offering a hit
you offer pleasure, as simple as that
Left feeling like I'm a mouse, and you're the cat
you can't explain why you're drawn to me
and just like I can't explain why your presence makes me so dizzy  
you want to know what it is I like, and when I'm with you I lose control
oh God, please have mercy on my aching soul
how many times have I been down this road before?
I keep you at arms length, but you thirst for more
I'm not your type and you're not mine
I stay away so I won't ever make the mistake of crossing that line
sometimes your names crosses my mind
and I wonder why you have to be so unkind?
in your eyes you promise so much
I can't help but wonder what it would be like to feel your touch
I know you like my body, and think I'm fun to talk to
but what kind of girl would fall in love with someone as dark as you?
your with those poisoned cupid lips made for kissing
and fuck kissing is what this girl is deeply missing
but I'd be a fool to have any feeling for a fellow creature of the night
because you are too much like me and will leave come daylight
and I know you're smarter then you act
and that my dearest friend is a critical fact
watching you hide your emotions skillfully well
I feel deep pity for the girl for this one fell
I drown in feelings of hate when you creep near
knowing full well my boyfriend is no where close to here
your eyes touch me, but you stay physically away
you want me to come to you and you think I'll break down someday
with a smooth voice you offer things I have only read about
you've offered me a way to mentally be free; to get out
and I find that I'm really at a loss on what to do
when my body betrays me and responds to you
when I corner you and ask only to hear you say you don't know
but I have this feeling that you do but don't want me to know
you keep my dumb mind tied to this carousel of hell
how in the world am I to escape? to break this spell?
he knows things that I have would have never told
nothing anyone else would ever know, he is warm and then he is so cold
though I don't what I'm doing, and don't know what he wants
but I'll be still and ignore his body calling out to mine with it's sexual promises and taunts
I'm too naïve I truly don't know why he affects me so
I thought he only viewed me as a friend, but I was wrong he thought of me as a little more