Serene Suicide

I give you my thanks, for staying so close
Yet you're always so far
I feel the need to be sorry, but I ask of no pity
I tried to hard, as the strength left me
So now is the night, that my last breath was taken
I ended my life, now I'm Hells forsaken
You need not to worry, for you're better off
I was only a burden

Life was so hard, yet simple so easy
But I couldn't take much more
Of my minds insanity

You may never know, the thoughts my mind beheld
Though lets keep it that way, so you are safe
Dangerous I was, to keep by your side
I have only helped, keep you alive

It's time you see, what really is me
All the consequences I knew where there, but still I did
I hurt inside, behind that smile
A smile you all knew, but did you know me

So much I wanted to talk, yet little came out
I couldn't bring my self to it, so this is my end
You knew the side of me, I wish to be
But this is who I really am

If I could, I'd stand by your side
So proud and tall, the better of me
But the worst has come out, now you see
Eventually this to happen, better it now

My fake side you know, oh to well
Let the truth reveal itself now, for here it shall tell
I can't control it, for it showed
Now I lie here alone, for the next to come

The ground holds my bed, lay me down softly
But don't worry, you need me no longer
If you ever needed, I was there
But no longer shall I stand with you
I shall lay in the haven of my own serenity

Wish not that I was back, for all the pain I have held
Remember me not of the times we held fighting, but of the times I smiled
Even if they were fake, it shows how much I care
Care to see you happy, though now is the time I take a different path

I can't help but feel as though I messed up
But I won't wish for you to take it back
Life didn't give me the strength to stay
For I have no desire to be in the hollow body my soul used to rest

My soul is with a peace now, only I to see
Think nothing of my mind, for you shall be trapped
It is a dark and dangerous place to play, the mind
But with me, it's the sanity seeping through every crack
Never let what has happened, control your mind and soul
For you will end up, just like me
That is what I wish to never happen, for you fall into darkness

I say my goodbyes, written not spoken
Loved nor hated, was my mind to take
This was meant to happen, or never it would
Now look to the future
As now I'm your past