hopes death

so i find myself hurt that numbs
how can i be so cold the end foretold
i believed in us, in you
now what do i do
all your actions pointed to exactly this
you cant feel your too selfish
and if i allowed you to youd kill us both
you could always find some justification
to treat me like a woman beneath caste
you got with me cause you knew
that youd never love me im not your taste
and i looking back all i see is a tragic waste
im tired of unkept promises
lies and distrust
of sad attempts at loveing
how can a heartless person feel
who could have known my pride and self respect youd steal
so many floods of tears
i could have filled the grand canyon
i guess when your soul wants its companion
theres no consololation to the dieing of my  hope
so then you decide to quit hurting
but still feel
nothing feels real
it must be
that i found enough strength to turn my back on loveing you and the hope that love be returned
too many questions and never answered you betrayed my faith and made a fool of me
im not too blinded to see how much you didnt care for me and now you will see
that id move right on and you come out of your nodd to find me gone ,you killed me
left me, bleeding out my heart
all in peices ,you dissected my self esteem
maming all i thought was a future bright
into a dream a nightmare i waited and tried
now im made aware that you were never gonna be there nothing did we share
to be with you is to death a march  to war with no weapons and no armor