Tear Black Angel

Her black tears fill the black ocean
   which we call the abyss
Since her tears flow forever  
   hence the abyss is endless
 
Disappointment engulfs her heart
   she's the world's most faithful cynic
Yet she praises the light of friendship
   she needs, breaths, lives it
 
So why?...
  do her eyes
     bleed these black tears
Why?...  
   does she cry  
     this black blood for years
 
First of all she is an angel who had a fall
But she suffered from feeling her black wings tear  
   being torn, ripped off  
Feather by feather, tendon by tendon
Now all that remains are black nubs fluttering,
   struggling to lift her from this trough
 
Could name a few ails...
 Abandonment, Betrayal, "Bullying",
 Disappointment, Lies,  
    DEATH...witnessed on many occasions
                ...attempted on few occasions
     Psychologic Defenestration:
        being pushed from plush clouds of a dream land  
        plop, thud hard into rigid reality
 
She maintains a lack of self confidence.
But lately shes falling short, actually having some self motivation-  
Finally covered in it's inflamation
Now she's back-to-the-world cynic  
    Attempting to ascend, helping herself



   -To My Beautiful Angel, I will always love you-