Never good enough

I try and try to please them.  Never enough, it's just never enough!!!
Gestures of kindness go unnoticed.  Who thinks enough of me... No one.
I cry myself to sleep the echoes of my tears are deafening yet to them go unheard.  Feel so alone and unappreciated.  Not loved, unnoticed, so sad.  Death seems peaceful yet it will not come for me. I am tortured by my thoughts.  Round and round they go when they stop no one shall know.  Why am I so misunderstood, alone and pained.  Left to live a life unfulfilling.  Do do do I must accept accept radically.. Hmmmmmm
Pain pain go away don't come back on any day.  I go to sleep now hoping to stay sleeping, hate to wake from a dream weeping. Leave me alone go far away.  I'm sick of trying and slowly dying. Fly my sparrow fly, fly high up in the sky. Leave the nest never to return will you do this my dear? Will you ever learn. Goodbye cruel world I hate you so.  I want to die but can't let go of the hope that ill receive if I'm a good little girl so here I go round and round again always hoping to find a friend. Goodnight sleep tight don't let the memories bite...