Submissions by Rewired

I try and try to please them.  Never enough, it's just never enough!!!
Gestures of kindness go unnoticed.  Who thinks enough of me... No one.
I cry myself to sleep the echoes of my tears are deafening yet to them go unheard.  Feel so alone and unappreciated.  Not loved, unnoticed, so sad.  Death seems peaceful yet it will not come for me. I am tortured by my thoughts.  Round and round they go when they stop no one shall know.  Why am I so misunderstood, alone and pained.  Left to live a life unfulfilling.  Do do do I must accept accept radically.. Hmmmmmm
Pain pain go away don't...

I've tried to find reasons to forgive many reasons to continue to give.  You have left me empty and broken inside running from the pain with nowhere to hide.  I love I loose time and again it seems that even now I cant keep a friend. Torn and tattered so hurt and alone I wail in the night can you hear me moan.  I call out to you and you don't hear a sound, Im in the next room but you would think I was far,  so sad so lonely this pain is profound.  My life has been nothing more than a nightmare.  I want to wake from this slumber that has kept me bound the nightmare where I scream in the night...

When I was a child I thought I could fly.  I would start by running and concentrating on taking flight.  I'd fly over the trees and the neighborhood houses.  How did I know what that looked like?  that still makes me wonder,  did I really fly?  did I somehow have the ability to fly in order to get away from the torture I was experiencing.  I wish I still knew how to do it.  I wonder why I would come back and sometimes I'd feel angry with myself.  was there a part of me that enjoyed the pain?  why didn't I keep flying?  I have dreams periodically about flying and I love those dreams.  I feel...

Who would miss the girl with the melancholy disposition?  she must be a burden to those who try and reassure her.  It will get better they say,  tomorrow is another day,  drink some chamomile tea it will help.  And then there are those who simply don't understand her,  they are the ones who say "snap out of it"  "whats wrong with you?"
"get tough",  "you are so weak" and it goes on and on.  Inside her core she feels an empty shell of what once was a happy and vibrant young lady.  One day on a cold day it all changed as quickly as a tree falling in...