cut me down

 at last

          found       in
                  e
                  e
                  pain,

I have courted him to me
from within me,

I love him with his shame
as my own
as he is
indeed mine

when I look at him he moves
fast
fast he hides himself from me,

I don't blame him
for I love him
now,

I wonder
will he let me in to love him?         will he love me?

for I have denied him
for I have starved him
for I have let the pain remain,

disappearing

through time
as if into a past that had all but fallen to a death,

I whisper
I love you xx

I do not want to scare him
as I am scared by him,
I do not want to hurt him
as I am hurt by him,

please stay within me
please trust me

I love you xx

The answer is within
within him
within me,

this day
we have this day
today
I met you and we touched,

you and I,

we felt eachother
                   as if
                still waters were turning within



me



you
and I





                        I loved you