"My purpose"

Everyday of my life I'm trying to find "my Purpose" , still can't get an answer as I walk this earth's surface ~ In my dreams I search for the dead and gone , and I find 'em and together we sit and mourn ~ Then i awake and reality hits , I'm still stuck living this life that's a bitch ~ When i think i'm right it's only mistakes I keep choosing , will I ever see the light cause I can't win for losing ~ The harder I fall the smarter I get , but I'm running out of time and I done took too many hits ~ All this wisdom I've gained I still feel empty , and if I pass today I hope the Lord awaits for my entry ~ I done took the good with the bad , and I still lost everything I had ~ So I strive even more , just to see another closed door ~ But anythings possible I do agree , and I will keep moving on that is what's left of me ~ If I ever see my blessing I'll know that I have earned it , but in the meantime I'll still be searching for "my purpose" ~ B.