better of dead

I have no empathy for anyone, including you.
Apathy and infamy burn deep within me.
I've scolded you with the light I had for you.
I held it up to show you a new path.
But, now I choose blastphomy over you.

Ill no longer be your savior.
You've left me high and dry in my time of need.
Only left me to bleed.

I've worked so hard to elevate you.
Just enough to bring me down.
Everything is worthless to you.
But, let me ask..
Does that include I?
No need to answer..
I can see the "pain" I've brought you in your eyes.

Every word I chocked on to satisfy you...
Ill never think of them again.
And if this is the end..
Well, I'm in the thick of it.

If tonights my last night..
Just burn my memory from your head.
After all...
You probably think I'm better off dead.

Take these as my last words.
Sum them up as my eulogy
Throw away all the I love yous, all the notes.
Burden them with your "sympathy"
Act as if your apart of this family.
You know this is my end.
You brought me to the darkness.
Manipulated my light.
So tonights the night.

Before I finish this sentence ill be dead.
I'm taking a 22 to my head.
And ill only leave you the blood I shed.
After all...
You know I'm better off dead.