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an illegible guide to life

I grew tired of being told I was doing it wrong
as though there is a guide to life and doing it right
so I just stopped talking
because what is the point
if my voice is never heard?

she wasn’t going to be winning any mother of the year awards
and regardless of all her drunken apologies
for fucking it all up
she never meant a word of it
when we inevitably fell back
into the same old game
of let-me-tell-you-what-to-do

she had a thing for men that would take over her life
and demand she submit to all their whims
I learned how to be a whore
early on
walk the walk and talk the talk
just like her, good or bad  
I wouldn’t believe a single thing that comes out of my mouth

some days I still think about her
think about giving it another go
‘cause you only live once, right?
but every time I pick up the phone and dial
and let my guard down enough to let her in
she’s kicking me while I’m up
with pride bittering on my lips
and the realisation that no matter what I do
it’ll never be fucking good enough

she wrote the guide to life and how not to do it
and any deviation from her norm
simply won’t do

- Eve -
Written by EveAteRedApples
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