Realizations

(This poem was inpired by the very first line. My friend had posted it on twitter and I took a much deeper meaning out of it than she really intended it to be, but thank you Nancy!!)

I started thinking about my future and I got scared, so I got myself a bowl of ice cream.
It was the only innocent thing I could remember
Time has gone by so fast and childhood seems like its only a dream
But somewhere in my mind I still live when toys were alive and talked back
I built roads in towns of imaginary people to help get them where they needed to be
And every bad guy was overthrown in the end
But now that's only a memory that I can cherish til I slowly lose them all
As I grow older the responsibility grows too
And I must say its almost overbearing
Yes, I'm independent now and freedom feels good but it'll never amount to the freedom I had back then
When nothing could stop me and I had the world at my fingers, waiting for me to decide the next moment
I was the center of the world and God did it feel great
But it's only a dream now with blurry edges and only getting worse