No One Sees Me

No one sees me
when I am weak
when I am needy
when I am empty  
and I have nothing left to give
 
No one sees me
ready to give up
ready to give in
ready to give out  
when the battle is just too hard
 
No one sees me
in my pain
in my tears
in my hell  
that I created for myself
 
No one sees me
as frightened
as unsure
as insecure
like I so often feel I am
 
No one sees me
crying every night
howling in agony  
hating myself
for the way that I am
 
Everyone sees me
as capable
as perfectly well adjusted
as normal
whatever that may be
 
Everyone sees me
the way I want them to
the way I project myself
the way they want to
because it is easier that way