Amy

A client came in today
covered head to toe with blood and urine
there was no blank look on her face
no tears shed
not even a smile
nothing
it scared me
I felt like hugging her
telling her you're safe now
but I couldn't
I'm not allowed

she read me like a book
said she wanted me to take her to get cleaned up
"cleaned up" this woman needed a doctor
she refused one for now
just wanted a shower and a smoke
nothing a beer wouldn't cure

After she cleaned herself she looked as if she may be pretty
a bit on the used up side but still had that hard pretty look
to her
she called for me again
even knew my name
told me to sit near her and have a smoke
again the feeling of tears stung my eyes
but I wouldn't cry
I had to be strong so she would let me in to help her
fix her

She looked at me after she took a way to long pull from her cigarette
and said
honey if you cry I'll cry with you
stunned I drew back
didn't know what to say
looked me in the eye and said
I'm dead
hollow inside
I feel for nothing
but I can see when people are hurt and in need of something
and you are about to die inside and I need you to cry
don't be like me
be better then me
hurt
feel
love
live
I threw my arms around her and balled like a baby
big sobs escaping me
all for a woman I never met
but I knew her

she let out tears for me
a woman beaten pissed on raped
saw me and I seen her