My own Pity

Letting things go
to set things straight,
I fell in love with you
but its too late.

I know I am an ass
for you have to forgive me,
I know you cant feel what I feel
or see what I see.

My mind sickens
my body runs without care,
for my hate and feelings
for you must share.

Love isn't a word
you can say the meaning,
don't abuse it like you do
use it for a feeling.

If you have knew the things
I said I ment,
I wouldn't be lieng
dead on the cement.

My life drifted
from my careless body and soul,
I know now
I am a fool.

A fool who let everything drift away
in a new state of mind,
for my love
I must find.

I ruined myself
for I didn't care about it,
now I see who I am
nothing but shit.

So as I let go
I hope you know,
that I never thought I would say this
let this show.

Now since I am gone
my worries and problems stay in place,
blood and pity
is now all I taste.

Let this be
all I can say,
this is a great ending
to my day.

I now figured it out
that I can be who I want,
not same guy you figured out
out of some stupid stunt.

But now all I see
darkness and hate,
now its all gone
its not too late.

If you have seen me recently
I hurt for the thrill of pain,
I enjoy it all
I don't complain.

My blood fills my eyes
the love I let go,
now stares in my lifeless face
now you know.

If I can be happy
one more time,
I wont need to waste
all my time on rhymes.

People ask me
to change to fit their needs,
to do all the bitch work
and all their deeds.

But now since friends
have betrayed me,
this death I call romance
is now all they see.

If you don't want me
to feel this way,
to feel lifeless
each and every day.

Tell me you care
for what I do,
now i'm different
its now all new.

To let everything go
it must be done,
you beat me this time
now you won.

I lay here
dead in tears,
I have no feelings
I have no fear.

For I know
that you don't want me to feel this way,
but its time to leave,
for here I cant stay.

Bottled feelings
poor like my blood,
my body fills with hate
its thick as mud.

Now you realized
what I've did,
I grow from my pain
like an abused kid.