What can I do

My mom has left
now I am confused,
how could she just leave
I feel so used.

More tears fall
I am back to square one,
I have had her all my life
she cant be done.

I am so lost
why did she leave,
I love her a lot
in this time of need.

She gave us all up
as if she didn't care,
she is part of me
a part I don't share.

My memories build up
just like my tears,
I don't like this
I'd rather her be near.

I have so much to say
but what should I do,
all I prayed for now
will never come true.

I will follow gods power
and do what is right,
I want to take my moms hand
and head into the light.

Its not the same
without a familiar face,
its now a dead stop
and no more race.

I shouldn't have done
what I did best,
I was troubled all these years
now look at this mess.

Does she love me
tell the truth and dont lie,
my body is curling up
please be here when I cry.

I enjoyed every moment
with my family and mom,
she wiped my tears
she was the best mom.

Now I am all alone
me against the world,
my body cries with fear
my heart begins to curl.

I will never forget
the love I had,
I have never been this down
at least I have a dad.

But its not the same
without her around,
I miss her every word
I miss her every sound.

No matter what
I give her my all,
now I just want her
to catch me when I fall.