Couldn't Be You

i thought i was stronger than you
thought i could stand taller than you
but im still stuck in your hateful shadow
stuck in this never ending verbal battle
i try to stand up never back down
i thought i'd never crawl on the ground
will i ever get past this regret?
will i ever manage to forget?
is all i do pointless to you?
can you not see the effort i use to push through?
i want to some one to see my crying face
but i cant keep up with your running pace
you stand proud still blaming everything on me
but i wonder when you'll see
i truly am hurting, me!
i never thought that could be
i thought i was dead in my barren heart
Thought i'd feel happiness thats only ever tart
but do you showed me that true
i never can feel anything but blue
i pretended that i could hold on 
pretended that maybe i was strong
but you knew that i wasnt fine
you knew it was all a big old lie
i was dying on the inside
when you were by my side
it was like you had a sharp knife
that ended my emotionless life
i can say i was sorry that its all a mistake
but its not that easy as slicing a cake
I liked it better when I could feel nothing at all
Then I would never had have to fall
I can never be you
Never someone who lies as much as you
I wonder why
No one sees me cry
Is it because you turned them all
Against me to watch me fall
Do you really hate me
Hate the fact of what I couldn't be
That I couldn't be you