random thoughts

Every whisper, every sound of nothing against something, against space.. isn’t enough to tell me that you are gone and are not coming back, perhaps not in this life time..or the next, or the one after that.        I fucked up.
I am also not quite done loving yet.. I can’t stop now, I just started. And it feels.so.damn.good.. But what happens if the love isn’t given to the one that makes your heart thump and makes all the pain numb.. What happens if the one person you love wakes up one morning and doesn’t feel the same? Makes you wonder if it was all just pretence, I keep telling myself he hit his head and has got amnesia.. he will remember. Right? He has too.
Reality has a way of taking its sweet time to sink in at times... kinda weird, living in one galaxy yet it seems to be parallel dimentions. stuck in our own world..lets pretend for a second we never met.. that our worlds didnt collide.would i still spin on my axis, as though my very soul hadnt ben ripped from my being. i probably would.. days pass and i realise i still have to live without you.
in other news. things are going quite well for me.. im learning how to push myself the way you pushed me