Mixed feelings

uh,ure the main reason why i write this song  
u used to be my steroids, baby you kept me strong  
n now i hear ure leavin,but girl all of these feelings  
i expressed r with u so now i aint breathin  
cause part of my existence is goin wit ya  
i just hope u really arn't n u look toward the bigger picture  
now im on my knees prayin to life's predictor  
that u come back cause life aint life without u in the mixture  
u made my days thought about u at night  
yea i kno life is stressful bae it'll be ight  
but u packin ya bags n leavin me is no solution  
i thought things were changing with ours new year resolutions  
i cant go on no longer, take me out my misery  
u must of wrote in pencil,cause life's erasing our memories  
trying to get em all back but its slipping through my fingers  
i thought i was a holy man then y does the devil linger  
still in my life?, just decimating my plans n goals  
focusin on gettin me but the lords the one that has my soul  
thank y'all for listening to me n wat ive been revealing  
cause wat she just told keeps giving me mixed feelings