Dopamine Shortage

V1
I scream so loud,
I shatter windows with the sound.
But no one came to help me,
So I won't be saved, I'll be found.
My heart erupted,
With the sound of the sun.
The morning is my enemy,
I'll count my losses with a gun.

Chorus
Don't act surprised.
When I run from my problems,
I run for my life.
Yeah, don't act surprised.
You said hold on tight,
But this is the end of my life.

V2
And there is darkness taking over,
Spreading fear to every corner.
I'm not who I used to be,
The diagnoses came to change me.
I'm not who I used to be,
The depression came back and swallowed me.
So I'm finished pretending I'm not in pain,
I screamed so loud but no one came.

Chorus
Don't act surprised.
When I run from my problems,
I run for my life.
Yeah, don't act surprised.
You said hold on tight,
But this is the end of my life.

V3
This is the fight for my life.
I don't know what side I'm on.
I don't know how to make it
When the pain lasts so long.
I even starve myself,
Because I like the way it hurts.
Physical pain means nothing
When your brain doesn't work.

Chorus
Don't act surprised.
When I run from my problems,
I run for my life.
Yeah, don't act surprised.
You said hold on tight,
But this is the end of my life.

V4
I've lost control and goodbyes are encouraged,
I was born with a broken heart and a dopamine shortage.
My brain chemicals work against me,
So I'll self medicate until death sets me free.
Self-harm, self-loathing, but what self esteem?
I've found my way out so don't try and intervene.
Give me a reason, and I could try to stay,
But tomorrow I'll forget the promises I made today.