The Burden

Let's get things straight I've been thinking and there's something
I want to ask you
When was the last time you thought of me before you went to sleep?
When was the last time a thought a memory of you and I went through your mind?

Needless to ask what was that one thing that you promised me?
'Forever by your side, I'll never leave'
And like the razor you press up against your skin
Your skin it opens and you bleed
Pain is a constant reminder of what was once there

Your 'number one girl'
I could have sworn
This could have been avoided If we didn't open our mouths and speak from the center of our heart

I liked it better when we kept our secrets
Because, now we know
What we've been hiding we can't stand you look at each other in the face Completely fake to one another If there were a god, even he would pray for us

And he'd be unanswered
And just like I cry myself to sleep at the thought of losing you
It should have washed away my eyes of the all mistakes that I saw in you
And if you were I book I rip out the pages and replace them with dreams Because, even there's no hiding the shame of what you've caused to me

I'm so weak that I can not even begin to even speak about the things that happened between us

So instead I try to pretend that it'll never happen again
And it's only shoved to the back of my brain
Where all it just is just sit there
Building higher and higher with every regret

With every picture I hold in my hand
Until I snap and fall to my knees
And if you could see me at this moment you'd smile and laugh
Crushing and breaking every bit of anything we've ever had

I hope that when you see me
You took everything and left me with that promise you couldn't keep
You coward I hope you feel at peace
When I'm gone, so far gone

And this shall forever haunt me
Because, the sun is just starting to peak
On this new day
With a new face With a broken heart

And I will move forward with this I carry on my back
And the burden that I carry is our 'love' If that's what we're supposed to call it