No Easy Way Out

A love that’s been lost my life feels so shattered,
Suicidal, Exposed, nothing else matters,
The options before me are laid out on the table,
My mind is now racing the future unstable.

As I question myself I need to be quick,
Whatever the answer feeling so sick,
Fall from a height? Or swallow some pills?
Or something more painful for a quick easy kill.

Is this a cowards way out? My thoughts running deep,
Body aching so much as I curl up & weep,
A knife from the kitchen! A way out at last,
Throw up in the toilet my feelings not masked.

Chaos, dilemma, runs through my mind,
Facing up to my fate life can be so unkind,
Take a deep breath, beads of sweat on my brow,
Losing my bottle the time has come, do it now!

Turn on the tap the cool water flows,
The washbasin fills as my fear now grows,
Splashing my face then fists tightly clenched,
Veins are now swollen my body feels tense.


Energy rushes around in my head,
Euphoria, sadness, knowing soon I’ll be dead,
No looking back the decisions been made,
With trembling hands, face to face with the blade.

Fight to see through the tears, try to block out the pain,
My wrists sliced wide open blood pours from my veins,
Watch as it mixes in with the water,
Then slump to the floor, as I face the self-slaughter.

Numb now with shock can never go back,
Strength ebbing away my world turning black,
Shrouded in silence movement now ceased,
The torment now over the soul now released.[/font]