I Am Ready

I've tried

A million times
to wipe the need for affection
from my heart and mind...

Though...without it I feel my soul ...
will grow cold
and my heart will loose its ability to stay kind.

As I strive...to preoccupy my mind...
with other things... but the
lack of compassion and love in my life kinda ...stings
and then I get distracted as my heart gets out of practice
and I become disjointed....in my approach to having a mate...
in this cycle of angst my desires become the thing I hate...

and this need inside me ....aches...as my inner spirit
tells me...just to wait.
but how does one wait...without loosing faith

As I watch Love...bud all around me...
I desire to taste....and be filled

For Love to come and grace my life...
I would allow my soul to lay down and be still

All the while deciphering
those around me with ill will

Trusting my inner knowing
so I don't get devoured by
wolves in sheep's clothing

you know the ones who say all the right things
and leave a sistah ...glowing
until a hoof, some horns,or a tail start showing

I have no desire to be eaten alive...
I just wanna be one good mans...joy and pride
His friend his confidant...Lover...then wife.

So in the words of India Arie...
"I am ready for love....why are you hiding from me
I'd gladly give up my freedom..
to share in your company"...

I am ready...to sacrifice with my attention and time
I am ready .... I've come prepared for a love that is mine
I am ready ...Oshun...shower me with light from above
As I kneel at the alter of Venus...
I ...am ready for Love