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"NO! I will not eat!"
I cant eat. If I eat, I will gain weight. I can't gain weight. I can't. If I do I will look ugly.
Well more ugly that I already do. "I can't! Please don't make me! Please!" I scream this as he pushes the food to my lips. I press my lips together hard so he cant open them. He tries and fails. So he tempts me with his scent. He breaths close to my lips and i start to lose consciousness. My lips parts and he feeds me. I cry and he holds me. My stomach doesn't register the food. My body wont let me keep it. It comes back up as fast as it went down. I told him it wouldn't stay, But he insisted. But just look at me. Really look at me. I don't need food. I don't need to eat. I need to lose some weight and then i might look better. Might. We will hope for the best.
I cant eat. If I eat, I will gain weight. I can't gain weight. I can't. If I do I will look ugly.
Well more ugly that I already do. "I can't! Please don't make me! Please!" I scream this as he pushes the food to my lips. I press my lips together hard so he cant open them. He tries and fails. So he tempts me with his scent. He breaths close to my lips and i start to lose consciousness. My lips parts and he feeds me. I cry and he holds me. My stomach doesn't register the food. My body wont let me keep it. It comes back up as fast as it went down. I told him it wouldn't stay, But he insisted. But just look at me. Really look at me. I don't need food. I don't need to eat. I need to lose some weight and then i might look better. Might. We will hope for the best.
Published 20th Apr 2010
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21st Apr 2010 00:48am
Eating disorders are NOT healthy. I know you probably don't need anyone to tell you that, but I know from experience that they can bring extreme emergency room-worthy health problems. I doubt you need to lose weight. Everyone in the world thinks they need to, even the slinniest person alive. The media shows us perfect people and we think we should be like them...WE SHOULD NOT LOOK LIKE THE PEOPLE ON TELEVISION!
21st Apr 2010 1:32am
Thank you.. when i was younger i was anorexic because i was abused and people told me i wasn't good enough for them.. its just carrying over into these days
