my goodbye lullaby

 You said you loved me
So  what changed?
You were my everything
The only reason I got up in the morning
I loved you
Yet you put me through so much hell
You were the one who made me cry
All your words are full of lies
I trusted you
Believed everything you said to me
But you went behind my back
Yet in your lies there was truth
You know I'll never love you like I used to
But I will remember you
You were my first love
You were mine
As I was yours
Yet you were ashamed
Embarassed
You denied it
But we both knew your friends meant more to you than I ever would
Cause baby can't you see were just a fantasy
You were funny
Cute
Way to cocky for your own good
But I liked it
We were the same in many ways
We both had a twisted sense of humour
We both loved guns and explosives
We were both daring and adventurous
Always up for something new
Both sporty
Both total seeds
I miss you
Yet you will never know
I told you I was over you as you were clearly over me
I miss the way you used to hold me
Grab me around the waist and hold me tight
Call me beautiful
Call me yours
Say we were perfect together
That you never wanted to let me go
Yeah
That worked out great
I miss your lips against mine
I miss your little quirks and imperfections
You werent perfect
But neither was I
I miss the person I was when I was with you
You used to be the one who made me happy
You used to be the one who made me
But now your as cold as ice
Lucky to even spare a glance in my direction
To even talk to me
I still love you
I hate myself for it
But I still do
But the years that I've wasted is nothing to the tears that I've tasted
I will never forget you never ever
There will always be a place for you somewhere inside my heart
………………

Henri