Don’t Talk About My Day, If You Haven’t Seen My Midnight!

These are the things that I hear on an daily basis:

You have beautiful skin!
Are you always this calm?
You’re a happy person!
You are such an inspiration!
You are an outstanding mother!
You are so energetic!
You look too young to be a grandmother!
You are such a hard worker.
How do you keep your hair whipped at all times?
You have a pretty smile!
You always dress so nice and color coordinated!
You are so creative!

IF ONLY THEY KNEW!..............I’m a mother of 4 and grandmother of 2. I was pregnant with triplets, but I miscarried one of the babies and ended up with twins.  Six years ago, I was diagnosed with cancer.  I have undergone surgery, fine needle biopsies, radiation treatments, CAT-Scans, MRIs, Ultrasounds, Whole Body Scans and I have to take daily hormone replacement pills for the rest of my life.

One year ago, I was diagnosed with Lupus.  However, I refuse to take any medication for this ailment.  There are days when it’s difficult for me to get out of bed, my joints hurt like hell, they stiffen and lock, I can’t bend my elbows and my knees ache. Yet, I still get out of bed and continue with my activities of daily living.

Recently, I was told that I have a severe hereditary Anemia and I was in need of a blood transfusion.  I refused the blood transfusion and agreed to take Iron pills 3 times daily for one month.

During my childhood, adolescent and most of my adult years, I had to endure the pain of having a Crackhead for a mother!  My father thought he was a down low Crackhead, but I knew better.  I was physically abused my pill popping and alcoholic stepfather for several years.  He used to beat and pinch me until my skin peeled off, while my mom was at work.

Two years ago, I terminated a 17 ½ years relationship with a man that I was no longer in love with.  

Despite of all the things that I have endured and enduring……………………..I’m happy,  I manage 2 busy medical practices, I cook/cater, I’m a party planner/decorator, I make gift baskets (all types), I produced 2 college children and write about a variety of things, however I’ve only posted my erotic writes on DUP.  

Happiness is a choice throughout life.   I refuse to let anyone steal my joy, especially if they didn’t give it to me.  I don’t take life for granted and I live each day as if it’s my last.