The 5th Birth

Let's Drink Tea by Shady Blocks


Chapter 1

First birth was O.K., I'm here aren't I? Second birth was me inviting my flaws, and embracing them. Third birth was chance to breath and get away from my self. Fourth birth brought me back. Fifth birth stole me away forever.

I couldn't help but laugh when I walked in, maybe I was nervous, maybe a dark part of me thought it was funny, or maybe I was just laughing to feel better. Either way, one thing was certain, I was nervous. I took steps to make a name, but in one leap, they took my name, and turned me into something new. I wasn't ready, but I honestly never am for that matter. I closed my eyes in the waiting room, my eyelids changed into a movie screen, displaying clips of childhood. It's all shady, but sometimes I see what I don't want to, and it takes hold of my lucid mind, and kills me until I know what it means. I opened my eyes to find an empty room, still the same as when I came in. It's always so vivid, these boring moments, but it all changed when they called me in. I went into the little office that housed two chairs and a desk, a lone man looking at me as I stepped in. "Welcome to you're fifth birth" He said evenly. I was scared, even though I wanted it, I was scared it would change me. If I could go back, and just tell myself that this was a bad idea, I might still be able to walk outside, without paranoia, without being seen, without being trapped. I might still be O.K., if I was smart enough to see that a fifth birth, was not for me, I wasn't ready, and even to this day, it's hard to accept what fate the 5th birth laid out for me.