Everyday

it happens when I am shopping for groceries
or sometimes when I am washing a dish at the sink

mostly it happens when I am not fully engaged in a task
but sometimes it just happens out of the blue

some days more than others
but it happens everyday

I suddenly become very aware of how sad I am
aware of my emptiness and how much I miss you

I can feel the heat of tears in my eyes
and a tightness in my throat

sometimes I feel a telling quiver in my chin
and I know it's going to hit me hard

like right now...