i odda try again

i odda try again
it only takes once to get it right
i'm tired i'm cold
the days that i didn't cry or bleed as much
those where they happy days
now i'm old
i'm not a virgin
i have my wounds
they just won't heal
now i must go
i'm done here i'm nearly dead
i want it
i want it so bad
i don't wanna die i just don't wanna cry anymore
so after this maybe i can do it this time
the right way
help would have been nice
but if i can i will
no hesitation no guilt
just me dead
by my hand
i want it
i want it real bad
i want help to