Wanting perfection

Every day spending hours in the mirror.
Doing my hair and make up.
Changing my clothes every five minutes.
Washing off makeup and starting new.
Everyday I want to look perfect.
I try to look perfect.
Dying my hair so many times it dies.
Just so I can get it to match my clothes.
Getting judged everyday.
Throwing half my wardrobe away.
Sit there crying.
Start over again the next day.
Try to spend hours studying to get good grades.
Fail no matter what.
Try to change my personality so I can be "perfect"
Hating myself everyday for what I've become.
Try to make everyone happy,
Hate myself more when I don't.
Be normal so I won't get judged.
Get judged anyways,feel horrible.
Perfection isn't possible.
No matter what.
Try for it anyways,
Everyone thinks I'm fake.
Try to actually be who I am.
Everyone hates me with a strong passion.
Realize no one is happy with me.
No one at all.
Completely stop trying for perfection.
People hate me more then before.
Start the process up again.
The road of non-perfection.