My Heart Is Dead

My heart is dead, been alone too long
Try as I might I'm still not strong
I want to love you  
I swear I do
But my heart's so cold
It's in death's hold
I'm no damsel in distress
Boy, I know you'll give up like the rest
I'm no angel, more the devil
Just give up before you get hurt by trying to loving me
I fear you'll end up just another face in my dark sea
I'm alone
Won't let anyone close
Won't let the hurt in
Been hurt to many times
Boy, you're going to have to fight to get it
I've built up these walls
Locked all the doors, broken all the keys
I'm a prisoner of my mind
No one in this world can save me
I want to love my but I'm a prisoner to the pain
Slave to the master of avoiding it
I've pushed everyone away
They call me distant
Won't get attached
Say I have a problem
Well, just take a look at my past
I've been hurt less then some
Been taken advantage of
Been left to die
Been left for others
Been left to suffer
So forgive me if I hide from love
See where has it gotten me? Except the pain
A pain that haunts me night and day
I close my eyes see those I've lost
See the faces of all those who've walked away
I swore that last time that things would change
Been building my defenses waiting for the war to began
My heart the prize to win
And it's dead
So why are you even fighting for it?