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Pain.

What does this word mean to you?
Does it mean something physical,
Does your mind flash to a wound, past?
Does your body experiece it, ever so slightly, once again?
Do you flinch at the thought of it once again?
You can feel it now, can't you?
Your mind is wandering to the past,
its opening the door to a memmory once forgotten.
This Is Not Pain.

Well i'm here to talk about, not a physical pain,
But a mental one.
The one that cripples the body,
Moreso than any ingury of the flesh.
THe kind of pain that sends you to a dark corner,
Wishing for an end,
Wishing for the Black.

The pain I am speaking of comes from many sources.
It comes from the school bully,
From a teacher maybe.
Some people are resilient to the pain,
That your mind creates.
But most aren't.
The Pain Of The Mind is something that can cripple,
It can tear you apart,
And it can kill you.

Symptoms Of Mental Pain Include, but are not limited to;
Tears, Cutting, Screaming (my personal favorite),
Suicide, Insanity, Rage, Murder,
And let us not forget, that deep unrelenting AGONY.

let me tell you a little story (sorry for the change of subject),
When i was a boy,
A wee little Ladd of 4,
I started being abused.
Physically, sexually, ect.
all up to the age of 12.
8 years, and the worst part of it wasn't the pain,
It was the memmories.
I can still remember everything i've ever gone through.
even after years of counseling, and years of therapy,
I Still Remember.

THIS, my friends, IS PAIN.
The pain of remembering.
The agony of never forgetting.
The horrifying truth,
That i will never forget,
No matter how many drugs i injest, inject, or take.
No matter how much booze i drink.

So if you think you know what pain is,
Here are my shoes.
Tell me how they fit will you?
Are they too tight?
Too worn?
Too beaten?
Surprising they are still functioning.
Just please, don't ruin them anymore, will you?
Thanks...