confusion and pain

My heart aches and I dont know why.
Sometimes I wonder
Why I even try.. My heart
Is so broken
I dont know if will ever mend enough..
Sometimes i have to ask...
Why do I bother? Tell me why?!
So as days go by and
I try to forget the things
That i really regret.

So I pull the razor from its hiding place..
And draw that bloody line
Watching as the bead turns
Into a trickle and a trickle to a stream..
As tears fall from my eyes
From the never ending pain...