The Last Remains

 
…that night we had an ugly fight
I screamed
With a guttural rage trying to make my voice box explode
All the anger caged up was trying to escape
Screaming like a demon throwing up
Until I couldn’t scream anymore

I felt self-loathing but held it against the world
I wanted to watch everything burn
I wanted to see the look in her eyes
While the barrel went in my mouth
Right before the bullet went through my brain

My tendencies were the goriest of the gore
I wanted to scar others for life
That’s how much I hated myself
That’s how much I wanted to hurt my ex…

But then I began to understand I was being selfish
As I grew older the demons didn’t hurt as much
The love I felt for my children changed me
Whenever their tiny hands touched my face

The last time I saw my father
His face was cold
I kissed his forehead
My sisters kissed his cheek
Life had left his body

“Oh dad” was all I could muster
As the last remains of resentment left my heart

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