I Want....

I want her
She knows it
By the way, she parted her lips slightly
How she would slowly run her tongue across her teeth

I want him
He knows it
By the way, he would stare as if he were on a hunt
How he would slowly untuck his shirt to take it off

I want them both
I resign myself to watch
I guess this is my night to be a masochist
To torture myself knowing I could join
But I won't.

I'll watch as they play and enjoy
I will not even touch myself
No, tonight I want to feel something different

I enjoy inflicting some pain with pleasure
Tonight, I will inflict pain on myself
Trust me when I say
This is torture