Our song made me hide in a taco joint

You called me
your beloved
as your misty
body broke my
reservations

and my granite soul
melted
at your tender
generosity

and the honest way
you wanted me to heal

my heart.

my whole fucking heart
I need you

I walked Savannnah
and found a taco joint
in the middle of a suburb
and our song came on
the muzac speaker

some 1990s
ballad with quavering
voices singing trite
notes to words
that somehow
became a vow

a vow

beloved

I hyperventilated
in the bathroom
until it ended
and wondered
how’d I’d
move foward
when my body
lives in that night
we stayed awake
with you inside me
just to see suns
rise in our eyes

beloved

but I walked the streets
with an empty heart
and a listless pinky
blasting anything but us
in my airpods
to distract the
taste of my solitude

nobody has ever
loved me
like that

beloved

nobody
will ever
love me

like
that