90 minutes

I went out today
because staying home
would have meant
getting back into bed
and wasting my day  
with mind numbing distractions  
and I desperately needed  
to make my body move
beyond the act of breathing  
 
Between pain and depression
some days feel like hibernation  
and last time I checked  
it's not winter
and I'm not a bear  
 
I walked for an hour and a half
hit my pain limit
and had to get an Uber home  
because trying to navigate  
the bus system  
with an invisible disability  
isn't high on my list of things
to try today  
 
I'll pay tomorrow  
for today's exercise  
but it was worth it  
to not feel trapped  
by my own body  
just for a little while