Where Is My Decency..What Happened To My Empathy

I walked into a wawa the other day  
In front of me standing in line  
Was a homeless person  
I could see the filth on their blanket  
Presumably their only shelter in 30 degree temps  
Their clothes were also covered in dirt  
As were they  
From their head to their toes  
I could smell their body odor  
I looked away  
And tried to ignore what I saw  
When I left I held the door open for them  
They never said thank you  
I shrugged my shoulders  
And shook my head  
Because I really expected them to say that  
But  
What happened to me  
Where is my decency  
Why didn't I look them in the eyes  
And offer to buy them a meal    
Or pay for their drink  
Why did I judge them    
And why did I expect a thank you  
You hold doors open out of thoughtfulness  
Not an expectation of anything in return  
I obviously hate knowing there's homelessness  
But yet I was more focused on the eye sore I saw  
Versus actually helping with a solution  
Or just being nice  
By treating them like a person  
What happened to my empathy  
When did I become so selfish  
And self centered  
That I stopped caring about others  
I am the one that should be looked upon  
And judged    
For being so shallow and empty  
For not having a good soul    
Or pure kindness left in my heart  
I am the one who is truly homeless    
As I am empty  
Soulless    
A microcosm for what the world has become  
There was a day when the world cared  
But as I reflect on this I realized  
Everybody at wawa that day did the same thing    
What happened  
When did we become like this  
Why don't we make a difference anymore  
Why don't we get our hands dirty    
By working to make tomorrow better  
For all  
All problems have solutions  
We can all make a difference    
Yet we are fueled by greed  
And selfishness  
We are not selfless anymore  
We lost our values  
And our compassion  
We threw away hope  
And that's what's really sad  
Where is our decency  
What happened to our empathy