my brain is like a broken carnival ride

I told myself I'd stop writing angsty shit  
because I'm so tired of this  
misery-go-round in my head  
 
Another day, another mental wall
and I'm stuck staring at the
nothingness I feel  
without any solutions  
on how to get around it  
over it or under it  
 
I need more than this  
barren horizon of emptiness  
that promises something  
but delivers nothing  
 
I told myself I'd stop writing angsty shit  
because I'm so tired of this  
misery-go-round in my head  
but here I am again  
breaking promises  
because I lost the battle  
that said I need to hold on to hope
when there's no hope  
of turning things around today