Manic nights

Manic nights are the absolute worst up all night tired all day brain is racing racing racing with no clear thought to display. Spending all my money until my money is all gone. Feeling guilty always for the things that I’ve done wrong. Manic nights are the worst no sleep for me you see, stuck all night laying in bed while my husband gently sleeps. Manic nights are the worst but better than depression. At least I have a desire to live instead of suicidal sessions. I guess I should be greatful I’m still alive and able to say that manic nights are the worst when I’m up all night and tired all day