Alchemy

               
               
               
    I'm never going to write a book; never going to become an artist/writer of the highest order; never going to be wealthy; it's never been my soul's path nor personal desire at that.... I feel I'm one of the few who just have happened to "slip through the cracks"(into this matrix)- and simply absorbs what my soul gravitates to....(enough to keep my self "intact")"as to not become completely "void of life"-like as if "pronounced legitimately dead on the inside"- though at times I feel the borderline is there....                
               
I admire those who more or less do- let their soul's desire/gift, be the guiding light to shine them through the "blackout" that hits whenever it so happens to on any "stage";                
               
I only have just enough- "alchemy"- as to not completely lose my soul- to nurse what I can when I can, and when I can't- I withdrawal or "sleep it off".... sometimes I wish I didn't feel like i had to write or anything to keep me something close enough to "whole"....            
             
  no burning fire inside to achieve by any means-to "make dreams reality"-with an everlasting hold that's concrete; i'm just.....existing- existing, until my soul's ready to go-like an on again til off again not so steady waterflow; that's my soul's "journey"