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the real you won't be framed on a wall
I let a lifetime of lies
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
Everything is ending
and I don't see an afterlife
where you and I fit
I let a lifetime of lies
crash over me
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
Everything is ending
and I don't see an afterlife
where you and I fit
I let a lifetime of lies
crash over me
Published 20th Dec 2024
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20th Dec 2024 1:34am
I can't help but try to figure out the person that drew this out of you. A parent, or a lover. It's usually one or the other for us all, I think.
A bunch of well written lines within this, that give it a potent impact for the reader. As well as obviously yourself, as you wrote it.
Writing is our best self medication. Make it your "go to" first.
A bunch of well written lines within this, that give it a potent impact for the reader. As well as obviously yourself, as you wrote it.
Writing is our best self medication. Make it your "go to" first.
Thank you Styxian, this piece about my brother actually, I always thought he was so cool, even though he's never given me any real reason to think he's cool. Family stuff has been going down and I'm now finally admitting to myself that he is an asshole with a capital A. The signs where always there, but when we admire someone it's easy to overlook things we shouldn't.
I feel ya. My brother was a real douche from age 16 on. Manipulative, a wife beater, thief, etc
Nothing like me or our sisters. Who knows why some people just don't turn out right in the head.
When he died, I don't think anyone cried. Just sighed that his troubles were over.
Nothing like me or our sisters. Who knows why some people just don't turn out right in the head.
When he died, I don't think anyone cried. Just sighed that his troubles were over.
20th Dec 2024 2:09am
There a lot of different ways someone can be a POS. I'm sorry you went through that. I wouldn't wish shitty siblings on anyone.
20th Dec 2024 2:14am
He didn't effect me much. I'd just beat his ass, even into adulthood. I'm the older brother. He had about thirty pounds on me, of muscle, from his off and on prison stints. But, he didn't have the fire I have. I tried to help him, off and on. But, he was so cold blooded.
I was 16 the last time I hit my brother, pretty sure only person I hurt was myself though.
He got his shit together when the rest of us where floundering and he's under the impression that if you just do what everybody else does you'll eventually have a happy life. I don't know a more miserable person than him, to be honest.
He got his shit together when the rest of us where floundering and he's under the impression that if you just do what everybody else does you'll eventually have a happy life. I don't know a more miserable person than him, to be honest.
Indie this is incredible how you painted this poem. Favorite part Everything is ending and I don't see an afterlife
where you and I fit.
where you and I fit.
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