Mixing It Up

Love is a blend of flavors....

Put me with Jeffrey...
he can't bathe often enough...
he can't take criticism.
Dishing out abuse is his forte.

5 yrs of rape and beatings.
5 yrs of knives and guns.
5 yrs of fear of dying.
Total consensual BJs - 2 early on...

with a tiny tiny penis!

Put me with Mickey...
always drunk and high...
Rare erections. Always partying.
Where is he...jail...dead?

2 yrs of just me working.
2 yrs of moving often.
2 yrs of thinking I can fix him.
No BJs. Little sex.

Sobered up and beat me nearly to death!

Put me with Joey...
no drugs, rarely drinks. WORKAHOLIC!
Showers me with gifts...no emotions!
Mr. Perfect with too high standards.

19 yrs of financial security.
19 yrs of not one beating.
19 yrs of no name calling.
1,000 BJs (maybe more). Well hung sex!

I'm leaving him. He's too perfect...
I don't relate to perfection.
I only relate to abuse.
I don't mix well with others.