I May Be That Girl

I may be that disabled girl who's so sick she cannot work a normal job, but she's the artist that will save so many lives. She's the artist who knows that her art will heal herself in a way a normal job can't.

I may be that girl who was rarely ever chosen, rarely ever picked, but I know now that I will let love find me. I need many years alone. But I'm a caring individual who won't beg for love; I will things happen the way they're supposed to.

I may be that girl who thinks she'll off herself if things get too hard, but I'm going to try anyway and do this artist thing. It is worth all the risk in the world. Getting my voice heard is worth everything.

I may be the girl who people underestimate, but I'm that girl still fighting to make a difference, to truly change this world forever.

I may be the girl who had to live a life of solitude, but it's relatively easy to find friends, lovers, and more. I'm that girl who guys can fall for, I'm that girl who has her best friends by her side.

I may be the girl who thinks very negatively, but I love myself regardless. I have compassion for the fact that my severe trauma caused this.

I may be the girl who gaslights herself, never knowing whether she's distrusting her inner voice or if she's just overreacting, but I'm writing it out, spelling it out for you and me.

I may be the girl who writes about Josh forever, but at least I honored the fact that it was great trauma that I needed to overcome to get to the other side. It may take all my life to fix this, and there's nothing shameful or bad about it.