listen

 
listening intently I seek my internal voice
quiet for the moment
in the sllence I am lonely
 
spirits of the host keep me company
in the eternal storm
they aren't noise they are companions
 
restless day feeling lost without them
everyone is elsewhere  
where they go when they fade is a mystery
 
talking to myself to fill the void
there is a solitary voice that is still present
He desires my thoughts be on him alone
 
he stays behind to hear my observations and conclusions
temptation to place a person above him is an obvious one
but it causes him pain
 
my refrain I can see and touch them
where my Lord, I can only hear you
with need to be cared for
 
forgive me for not being more grateful
for things unseen, you help me with
understanding dons I've caused him great jealousy
 
my actions selfish  
when I'm faced with this emotion I can't cope
it's obscene how twisted my thoughts become when I'm envious
 
I've hurt him I know  
this is the reason for the mischief inside me
a deep sadness that won't leave
he reveals to me the nature of his pain
 
he wants my full attention
relenting need, I give it to him
in turn, he rescues me, showing me how to love