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Going Back Isn’t an Option
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It was just a few years ago that coming out of that kind of hell made me feel like I wanted to go back because being out in the world felt too raw.
I was out for a walk that morning and got hit with a wave of anguish, confusion and uncertainty. I grabbed my phone and wrote this in the notes. This was three days after I joined DUP.
It was just a few years ago that coming out of that kind of hell made me feel like I wanted to go back because being out in the world felt too raw.
I was out for a walk that morning and got hit with a wave of anguish, confusion and uncertainty. I grabbed my phone and wrote this in the notes. This was three days after I joined DUP.
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Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Yesterday 11:44pm
It's a sick reality that regardless how ugly it was, it was familiar & we knew what to expect. Moving past that is amazing
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Yesterday 11:47pm
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Yesterday 11:54pm
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Anonymous
Yesterday 11:49pm
Going back could be a comfort zone. May your lines help people who have not the strenght to fight the temptation to going back. You're a good soul ✨
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Yesterday 11:58pm
Thank you, John.
I don’t think people realize that coming out of an abusive relationship is like being released from prison. Many people commit crimes in order to go back because the real world is too much to handle. They can’t get Jobs, good housing, meals, etc. it’s almost the same thing. People don’t understand, you’re left on your own, trying to manage a world that basically doesn’t care and often times doesn’t believe you and blames you for being abused.
I don’t think people realize that coming out of an abusive relationship is like being released from prison. Many people commit crimes in order to go back because the real world is too much to handle. They can’t get Jobs, good housing, meals, etc. it’s almost the same thing. People don’t understand, you’re left on your own, trying to manage a world that basically doesn’t care and often times doesn’t believe you and blames you for being abused.
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Anonymous
Today 00:13am
There is not enough empathy, compassion, altruism, communitarism. We all are left too much ourself, and some of us can take bad paces. They also can't rise from the ashes by themself, so they fall into vicious circles because, as you said, can handle what they know. It's so sad, and I, as one, would do more for this society, because sometimes I feel abandoned too. I know grief and how people who love you can help you to recover.
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Today 00:17am
Thank you for the understanding although it saddens me as to why you relate.
Holding you in thought.
Holding you in thought.
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Anonymous
Today 00:23am
Thank you, Mary. I appreciate so much.
People like you give me hope in society.
People like you give me hope in society.
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Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Yesterday 11:50pm
And realising how wrong you were to be feeling that kind of emotion back then is a measure of how far you have come today. The irony of it all isn't lost on me either. In order to feel safe you needed to feel safe in what was unsafe for you.
You have a way of making sense through your use of normal everyday language without going into the scientific natural of, as I'm sure health professionals or therapists might.
This is so powerful, so relatable. Bravo! 🙏
You have a way of making sense through your use of normal everyday language without going into the scientific natural of, as I'm sure health professionals or therapists might.
This is so powerful, so relatable. Bravo! 🙏
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Today 00:00am
Well, it’s not wrong. Many people feel this way. It’s learning how to trust yourself and how to give yourself the things you need emotionally that help.
But you’re right. I have grown. Thank you, Billy💕
But you’re right. I have grown. Thank you, Billy💕
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Today 00:13am
What I'm saying is... at some point in the future you must have realised the safety of being in an abusively familiar relationship was wrong for you, otherwise you wouldn't have changed. I realise it took considerable strength to prise yourself away from that in order to see the clear blue sky ahead.
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Today 00:17am
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Today 00:12am
This is powerful insight that Trama can feel safe because you know where you stand. Never go back. You are powerful.
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Today 00:13am
Recidivists rarely see clearly.Thats not a judgement but an observation.
You won't be going back to your prison.
You won't be going back to your prison.
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Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Today 00:20am
The "new you" is a beautiful, talented, and desirable woman. Hugs and love, Oral
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I truly appreciate you sharing your life and thoughts on this subject matter, that has affected so many people's lives in so many ways, for I appreciate your strength and courage and perseverance, to be able to walk away and be able to share your thoughts and emotions and genuine feelings, for you took a strong step to get away from the negativity and drama and confusion, and madness of the mental and emotional abuse that was stealing your own personal thoughts and strength to come to an understanding that kind of life isn't what you want and need for the betterment of your own life 💪👍🙏 for I can relate to this message of the truth, about abuse yet what doesn't kill you only makes you that much stronger to stand and fight ✊ 🪬 SHAMAN 🪬👍💪💯 one love always through strength 😇 and your perseverance 🔥 fire and desire to continue to survive 😉
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Today 5:03am
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Today 5:11am
Keep your head up to the skies as you pray for you moving forward with your life 🙏🙏
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Today 4:15am
Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Today 6:42am
Well you have come a long way from this, possibly joining DUP helped you move on. Stay strong lady.
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Re: Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Today 6:46am
It certainly did. So has having the support of fellow poets such as yourself, Sir Solomon.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Re. Going Back Isn’t an Option
Today 8:30am
Oh, how I feel this one.
When going through trauma unsafe men feel safe (because it's what we know) and safe men feel unsafe.
...I'm learning to go for safe men and it seems like you're doing that too. Profound piece, dear Mary 💕
When going through trauma unsafe men feel safe (because it's what we know) and safe men feel unsafe.
...I'm learning to go for safe men and it seems like you're doing that too. Profound piece, dear Mary 💕
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Today 8:39am