Like A Summer Rose

I just don't know what to do with myself
Trapped in misery of my own making
Blasting the same song over and over
Each turn met with sobbing and screaming  

I just don't know what to do with myself
At first it was about the political climate
The dictatorship soon to embark
And my first thought after the results
Was how lucky you were to be dead
So you dont have to live in this agony

I just don't know what to do with myself
Did you feel this intensely when you did it?
Was the future so bleak and numb to you?
Was it worth it?

I just don't know what to do with myself
If you were the summer rose
Was i the sun or the rain?
Did I bring you light, warming and loving?
Or was i the cloudy, cold and harsh?

I really don't know what to do with myself
Going to the movies felt absurd
Attending a party was foolish
Having to work is asinine
Everything is unbelievably pointless
And I just don't know what to do