The Iceberg

I should have saw it coming    
It was right there in front of me    
But reality is mind numbing    
In my darkness I couldn't see    
   
I've lost sight where I'm heading    
And I've sailed way off course    
Conversations that I'm dreading    
And my actions making life worse    
   
I could have had everything    
But instead I chose nothing    
My life hanging by a string    
Consequences never bluffing    
   
I knew there still was hope    
Opportunities for a detour    
But instead of loosening the rope    
I approached the pain I'd endure    
   
I hit the iceberg unknowingly    
Discovering meaning and purpose    
This life I lived so stoically    
Hid what was beneath my surface    
   
A dark abyss of a mystery    
Confusing my life of lies    
A reflection of a memory    
Refracted in the past I despise    
   
Below the water submerged  
Fighting for a new beginning  
Now I'm fully immersed  
Into the depth of my ending  
   
It didn't have to end this way  
But I lived life in this denial  
I let guilt and shame eat away  
As I watched my life spiral