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Thirty Five
Thirty five+ years
of fighting an ED
Called bulimia
is far from easy
'cause healing
is not linear it's
setbacks falling
down & crawling
back up starting
over at point 0
the holistic work
i am doing with S
causes changes
slowly over time
going to the gym
and working out is
a mood boost yet
still didn't suffice
added microdoses
Truffles to the mix
it certainly asks for
some heavy artillery
this fucking ED of mine
of fighting an ED
Called bulimia
is far from easy
'cause healing
is not linear it's
setbacks falling
down & crawling
back up starting
over at point 0
the holistic work
i am doing with S
causes changes
slowly over time
going to the gym
and working out is
a mood boost yet
still didn't suffice
added microdoses
Truffles to the mix
it certainly asks for
some heavy artillery
this fucking ED of mine
Published 16th Oct 2024
Author's Note
Sia - Chandelier (acoustic)
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16th Oct 2024 2:03pm
16th Oct 2024 3:36pm
Sorry to hear you struggle with it too & yes, one day at a time. Thanks for your visit :-)
16th Oct 2024 2:26pm
Life isn’t linear.
For every two steps forward there’s one step back, but it’s still progress.
Keep the faith, girl.
You got this💕
For every two steps forward there’s one step back, but it’s still progress.
Keep the faith, girl.
You got this💕
16th Oct 2024 3:36pm
You're so right, every step forward is progress. Thanks heaps for your comment 💕
16th Oct 2024 2:45pm
One of the biggest steps anyone faces with any type of addiction is open admission! Once you openly admit you allow room for Love to take the place of secret shame. When we self-isolate, we cut off opportunities to walk through newly opened doors. I am proud of you for being who you are. You never know how much it helps someone who may never let you know but becomes better! 💕
16th Oct 2024 3:42pm
That's one of the reasons I write and post writes about my eating disorder: so people who struggle with it too feel less alone, perhaps find help and get better. Thanks heaps for your heartwarming comment and your wise words, they mean a lot to me. I appreciate you 💕
16th Oct 2024 3:04pm
16th Oct 2024 3:44pm
16th Oct 2024 3:52pm
Openly sharing, writing, and knowing the truth is a trilogy for continuing to win. Blessing to you beautiful lady. Hugs and love. Oral
17th Oct 2024 1:24pm
16th Oct 2024 4:09pm
"Healing is not linear"
Damn...that right there should be carved for all eternity into our memories. The struggle..sigh...sending you so much love, sis 💖
Damn...that right there should be carved for all eternity into our memories. The struggle..sigh...sending you so much love, sis 💖
17th Oct 2024 1:30pm
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16th Oct 2024 5:22pm
Step by step, day by day, ...but as long as you are going in the correct direction. Stay strong lady!
17th Oct 2024 1:34pm
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Anonymous
16th Oct 2024 11:53pm
35+ years is a lifetime. Any little positive step in the right direction may be a formula for success. Even if it means taking different unexpected paths to get there. Any kind of addiction is a chain around the neck.
I wish you well and hope those chains loosen and fall off soon.
I wish you well and hope those chains loosen and fall off soon.
17th Oct 2024 1:44pm
It was certainly a long time. Too long, but many small steps make one big step. Therapy never helped much or change much, so I'm trying different means now, means that fit me better.
Thanks heaps for your comment and for wishing me wel, I really appreciate you :-)
Thanks heaps for your comment and for wishing me wel, I really appreciate you :-)
17th Oct 2024 1:51pm
I've never measured my neck before, I must confess. Other things maybe but not that. I don't really know what to say that hasn't already been said by others. Only one thought came to mind... at least you're writing about it. I like the pictures you've been putting out lately. I think they're sexy. 😊
17th Oct 2024 2:12pm
Me neither, it's a way to express myself and my struggles artistically. Photography and poetry are a great outlet for that. Thanks heaps for your smile-inducing comment, I appreciate you :-)
18th Oct 2024 5:31am
Brilliantly written, Duende. That's about the same amount of years I've been fighting alcohol addiction. It's a one day at a time kinda process for sure. Sending positive vibes your way. Oh, I almost forgot, Into the list it goes. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
18th Oct 2024 7:42am
Alcohol addiction is a bitch too and I'm sorry to hear you're battling with it for such a long time. I have the feeling we're about the same age (I'm from '75) It's indeed a one one day at a time process. Thanks heaps for your comment, the positive vibes and reading list. It's an honor.
Sending you positive vibes too, that one day we may beat it. I appreciate you 🙏🏻
Sending you positive vibes too, that one day we may beat it. I appreciate you 🙏🏻
21st Nov 2024 5:42am
I love you....not in any romantic way....just because you need lots of loving....I hope you get enough.
Be strong, be weak, be whatever you have to be to ease your suffering.
Cheers
Be strong, be weak, be whatever you have to be to ease your suffering.
Cheers
24th Nov 2024 7:58am
You're welcome....stay safe....the world needs people like you and I.... even if we are a little bent out of shape.🙏
24th Nov 2024 8:04am
27th Nov 2024 2:05am
There is no body standard to force yourself into. Acceptance may be tough as hell, but less stress is crucial. Be healthy to be well. And vice versa. We are only vessels for our spirits. And that inside stuff is what's universally beautiful. Our light starts on the inside, then out.
So shine.
So shine.
28th Nov 2024 11:00am
You are so right. However, eating disorders have nothing to do with body standards, looks or food, it's about control. With the measuring tape I tried to express the hold it has on me, the vicious cycle, that it's choking me. Thanks heaps for your visit & comment, I appreciate it 🙏🏻
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